Scared.

I woke up shivering.. And from just now till now, I could barely go back to sleep. I woke Mummy up, for a moment there I felt I was 3-4 years old again. Although, from what I can remember, I have never ever done that when I was a diaper wearing kiddo. Mummy got worried, as I was starting to be very paranoid with everything around me. I had to be sent home in my boss's car or a colleague would ride with me in taxis, that was how bad Sunday's event got to me.

I have been telling friends that I am fine, chatted fine with them on msn, sms or even facebook. But am I really that okay?! I now can't sleep without the lights off.. and my sleep gets very disturbed. I called J, asking her if I could go see her, J is my personal friend and she is a psychologist. She is sucha darling, I usually don't do such things, like calling friends in the middle of the night, when I am in trouble or need someone to talk to. She answered and listen to me talk and cry for a good 20 minutes. She suggest she will come over to talk to me tomorrow, on her off day. I can't help but feel blessed that I have friends like that.

T, I just wish you were here with me now... I really miss u alot..   

Happy Birthday!

To Yvette:


You are a year older...


You are a year wiser...


2010 has not been a smooth start for you in the department of love. He left, the one you thought you would have spent your rest of your life with... But you stood up fast enough.. walk away from the sadness.. Friends play a part too.. How you manage to get through the months, I still don't have a clue. Still quite puzzled.


Work, on the other hand, was a different story. Working with different people on different management levels, did allow you to broaden your mind, add on to your experience. Met lovely ladies whom you can't stop loving. 


Family has also taken a different turn. Dad fell ill, took on more responsibilities as a daughter. Not hard, cause you love him, and you only have one daddy. Bittersweet. 


Health, not too good. Got to work harder in keeping the flu bug at bay! Jiayou! 


Love,well, let's just say you are simply just enjoying your current status. No obligations.. meeting new guys... Joanne will understand why. 


Anyway, hope all your 3 wishes will come true! and enjoy your day! Happy Birthday Yvette! 

A day of mixed feelings.

Knock off from work... Went home to shower then head down to Marina Bay to meet my parents and aunt to meet up with Uncle Robert for dinner.

As I was heading down, I can't help but think about all these places were all up and ready for the public at such a late time, time when I am all alone, and it is always these places that make me think of that one, thinking what would it be like if I was here with him, that is why I can't help being a little sad. But its all over, funny how I took 5 years to forget the first one, 2 years to forget J and barely 3 months to forget the recent one. Maybe love was not strong with K.

As I was reaching the casino, I saw a familiar someone. Someone who just changed his profile picture not too long ago. I am happy for him, although it took me a good 5 years to let him go. But it was nice to see him, again although I guess he didn't see me. I wish you all the best.. you know I always will. =)

Okay, enough of the exes, let's talk about this nice dinner I was treated to. A $300 per person dinner... Now I know maybe I can get a discount, wahahaha! Say earlier mah, mei! Hahaha! Enough of my rantings, let my pictures do the talking.

I realise...

I realise that I have fallen more in love with you than I did 6 years ago.


Maybe after so many years, I realise what the phrase "the one that truly loves you is the one that you don't see."


One step at a time, as I told Joanne.


Maybe one step at a time this time... the steps will lead us to where we want to go. 


Fingers crossed... but no matter what.. I know I love you now. 

Been a long while.

It has been a long while since I last blog. Wonder who still reads my blog. Oh well! *Shrugs*...


It also have been a long while since I met Joanne... Met her for dinner and chit chat yesterday. Time with her is never boring. Laughter is always there! Love you sis!


And through our conversations yesterday, I realise why when I broke up with K, I did not even cry much compared to when I broke up with J. Because with K, I realise it was he who loved me more than I did. Till the end, when things just crumbled, I took it with a pinch of salt. Surprise!! Anyway, the funny thing is there are certain things that I tend not to come in contact with if I can, like I switch channels if there is a movie introduction on the TV, it reminds me of him, because he is a movie buff, I don't go to Pasir Ris UNLESS very necessary, which has not happen yet and I have not taken a drop of beer (which is good!!), and I don't look at marathon ads anymore. All these just lead me to think of him, although there were lesser love on my side till the end, it does not mean I do not love him right? I am still human.. And of course after breaking up with him, I no longer harbour any thoughts of getting married or starting family.. Thanks to him! With my new relationship now, I will NOT think so much.. One step at a time.. Marriage really does not mean happily ever after. I have seen too much instances around me. Not cool and fairytale anymore. Although I know marriage is NEVER fairytale. 


Yup, why didn't I blog for so long, because life has been hell busy for me! School holidays are here, thus the ability to blog! I will try to come and "visit" you, my dear blog. Till then..