Scared.

I woke up shivering.. And from just now till now, I could barely go back to sleep. I woke Mummy up, for a moment there I felt I was 3-4 years old again. Although, from what I can remember, I have never ever done that when I was a diaper wearing kiddo. Mummy got worried, as I was starting to be very paranoid with everything around me. I had to be sent home in my boss's car or a colleague would ride with me in taxis, that was how bad Sunday's event got to me.

I have been telling friends that I am fine, chatted fine with them on msn, sms or even facebook. But am I really that okay?! I now can't sleep without the lights off.. and my sleep gets very disturbed. I called J, asking her if I could go see her, J is my personal friend and she is a psychologist. She is sucha darling, I usually don't do such things, like calling friends in the middle of the night, when I am in trouble or need someone to talk to. She answered and listen to me talk and cry for a good 20 minutes. She suggest she will come over to talk to me tomorrow, on her off day. I can't help but feel blessed that I have friends like that.

T, I just wish you were here with me now... I really miss u alot..