I did it.. I went to you gig.
I went to your gig.. I feel like being in a korean drama.
Sitting there, as you played. I went in at the time when your showcase had started. I didn't not even tell the counter my name, I know you did reserved a place for me, and had special discount drink prices for me.
I know you will have the best spot for me, but I did not want to let you see me. Since our convo that day went.. slightly off the way. I have no more guts to face you, for now.
不能愛你，是我很無奈的事。我們的忙碌和有緣無份是你和我沒有辦法在一起。想和你說，你昨晚很棒！對你的愛，我會默默埋在心裏。我不應該讓你知道我對你的愛。朋友14年，最近才發現我對你的愛不再是友誼。當年你對我說了同樣的話，我當時沒辦法回應，就像你現在的無奈。
我了。。我會默默支持你，在你沒發現我的角落，做在那裏靜靜聼你彈吉他。
你很棒，只是我沒有福氣讓你用力外的身份留在我的身邊。
Sunday, October 24, 2010
Tuesday, October 19, 2010
7 years.. and I still miss her everyday.
7 years.. since she left us.. yet everyday, I still think of her...
To think about times, we would argue, yet times where she will be there to pat me to sleep..
Everytime I hear this song.. I just can't help crying... and my heart simply aches when I think of her.. I really miss her...
To think about times, we would argue, yet times where she will be there to pat me to sleep..
Everytime I hear this song.. I just can't help crying... and my heart simply aches when I think of her.. I really miss her...
Saturday, October 16, 2010
Heaviness of the ♥.
A friend of mine, KT, just broke up with her boyfriend of 12 years..
I knew her the same year I knew my friend, J.
J was my secondary school mate and today (16th), she is going to be married to J (her bf) of also 12 years..
How ironic is that.
KT asked me how did I managed to get through heartache, as this is her first. She had knew her bf, L, in secondary school too.
I told her, for me, it differs greatly on each of the relationship I had over the years.
For J, it took me a good 1 year plus to let him go. I remember my friend, D, was telling me to go read the book, it's call a breakup because it's broken. And given my character, I just got to realise over the recent years, I tell myself I have to be strong, and maybe due to the fact of my troubled secondary school years, I have built up a defensive wall around me. Whereas for K, I think I have said this one too many times, that it was weird, because 1.5 years of relationship compared to 4 months of relationship with J, but it took me only 3-4 months to get over him.
I told her I do things that can take my mind off the pain. I remember I read, read and read.. Time flies when you just read. I also cook and bake.. Mummy understood that was my way of relieving the pain.. I run and cry at the same time. At dawn, before the first light breaks through.. No one can see my tears and I remember at those times, I was sensitive to light and daylight. Brightness meant positiveness and that was the last thing I want to think about.
KT is really inconsolable.. She said she never felt so alone.. She don't know what's it like to go out shopping alone, have a meal alone, or even go to work alone. She and L were like super glue, or at least to us friends.. He ferries her to work, he is always there for her. As to why the breakup, I have not gotten the courage to ask her yet.
A8 12 year relationship.. compare to my 1.5 year and 4 months relationship, I think I am able to know that my heartache is nothing compared to hers. Seeing her now, all I can do as a friend, is to hug and give tissues and just be there for her and have to make sure that she does stay sane. God bless her!
I knew her the same year I knew my friend, J.
J was my secondary school mate and today (16th), she is going to be married to J (her bf) of also 12 years..
How ironic is that.
KT asked me how did I managed to get through heartache, as this is her first. She had knew her bf, L, in secondary school too.
I told her, for me, it differs greatly on each of the relationship I had over the years.
For J, it took me a good 1 year plus to let him go. I remember my friend, D, was telling me to go read the book, it's call a breakup because it's broken. And given my character, I just got to realise over the recent years, I tell myself I have to be strong, and maybe due to the fact of my troubled secondary school years, I have built up a defensive wall around me. Whereas for K, I think I have said this one too many times, that it was weird, because 1.5 years of relationship compared to 4 months of relationship with J, but it took me only 3-4 months to get over him.
I told her I do things that can take my mind off the pain. I remember I read, read and read.. Time flies when you just read. I also cook and bake.. Mummy understood that was my way of relieving the pain.. I run and cry at the same time. At dawn, before the first light breaks through.. No one can see my tears and I remember at those times, I was sensitive to light and daylight. Brightness meant positiveness and that was the last thing I want to think about.
KT is really inconsolable.. She said she never felt so alone.. She don't know what's it like to go out shopping alone, have a meal alone, or even go to work alone. She and L were like super glue, or at least to us friends.. He ferries her to work, he is always there for her. As to why the breakup, I have not gotten the courage to ask her yet.
A
Saturday, October 9, 2010
I will be happy.. Must be happy.
我要快乐我要能睡的安稳
有些人不抱了才温暖
离开了才不恨 我早应该割舍
我要快乐 哪怕笑的再大声
心不是热的 全都是假的
只有眼泪是真的
Thursday, October 7, 2010
Tuesday, October 5, 2010
why do i cry? why do i have to let tears fill my sight?
why do i have to be so angry? i want to let allthis these negative emotions go...
the old don't go, the new will never come. that's what i believe.
i know God loves me, thus He is doing this for the sake of my happiness...
because God does things for you out of love, although you may not understand why He do that to you at times.
why do i have to be so angry? i want to let all
the old don't go, the new will never come. that's what i believe.
i know God loves me, thus He is doing this for the sake of my happiness...
because God does things for you out of love, although you may not understand why He do that to you at times.
Saturday, October 2, 2010
I love her..
We met 6-7 years ago.. Had a common friend, whom in the end we both lost contact with.. But we stayed close since then.. It was really amazing.. I thought she hated me cause of that common friend, with whom she was having some issues with. Then we got talking.. And we exchanged msn accounts.. and as they say, the rest is history..
We laugh over the stupidest things... We stand by each other when the other one is sad or going through problems.. We make time for each other.. We share the same interest.. Do we hate each other? Hmm.. Well at least I know I don't.. Haha! Not yet.. Hope not..
Anyway, she was very nice to treat me to a session of KTV for my birthday.. Although we were meant to go to USS, but you owe me one sister.. hahaha!
I love her and maybe as a protective sister, to L, if you dare to bully her again, I will kick you to outer space!
Joanne Tong, I love you! XD
Wednesday, September 29, 2010
Scared.
I woke up shivering.. And from just now till now, I could barely go back to sleep. I woke Mummy up, for a moment there I felt I was 3-4 years old again. Although, from what I can remember, I have never ever done that when I was a diaper wearing kiddo. Mummy got worried, as I was starting to be very paranoid with everything around me. I had to be sent home in my boss's car or a colleague would ride with me in taxis, that was how bad Sunday's event got to me.
I have been telling friends that I am fine, chatted fine with them on msn, sms or even facebook. But am I really that okay?! I now can't sleep without the lights off.. and my sleep gets very disturbed. I called J, asking her if I could go see her, J is my personal friend and she is a psychologist. She is sucha darling, I usually don't do such things, like calling friends in the middle of the night, when I am in trouble or need someone to talk to. She answered and listen to me talk and cry for a good 20 minutes. She suggest she will come over to talk to me tomorrow, on her off day. I can't help but feel blessed that I have friends like that.
T, I just wish you were here with me now... I really miss u alot..
I have been telling friends that I am fine, chatted fine with them on msn, sms or even facebook. But am I really that okay?! I now can't sleep without the lights off.. and my sleep gets very disturbed. I called J, asking her if I could go see her, J is my personal friend and she is a psychologist. She is sucha darling, I usually don't do such things, like calling friends in the middle of the night, when I am in trouble or need someone to talk to. She answered and listen to me talk and cry for a good 20 minutes. She suggest she will come over to talk to me tomorrow, on her off day. I can't help but feel blessed that I have friends like that.
T, I just wish you were here with me now... I really miss u alot..
Tuesday, September 21, 2010
Happy Birthday!
To Yvette:
You are a year older...
You are a year wiser...
2010 has not been a smooth start for you in the department of love. He left, the one you thought you would have spent your rest of your life with... But you stood up fast enough.. walk away from the sadness.. Friends play a part too.. How you manage to get through the months, I still don't have a clue. Still quite puzzled.
Work, on the other hand, was a different story. Working with different people on different management levels, did allow you to broaden your mind, add on to your experience. Met lovely ladies whom you can't stop loving.
Family has also taken a different turn. Dad fell ill, took on more responsibilities as a daughter. Not hard, cause you love him, and you only have one daddy. Bittersweet.
Health, not too good. Got to work harder in keeping the flu bug at bay! Jiayou!
Love,well, let's just say you are simply just enjoying your current status. No obligations.. meeting new guys... Joanne will understand why.
Anyway, hope all your 3 wishes will come true! and enjoy your day! Happy Birthday Yvette!
You are a year older...
You are a year wiser...
2010 has not been a smooth start for you in the department of love. He left, the one you thought you would have spent your rest of your life with... But you stood up fast enough.. walk away from the sadness.. Friends play a part too.. How you manage to get through the months, I still don't have a clue. Still quite puzzled.
Work, on the other hand, was a different story. Working with different people on different management levels, did allow you to broaden your mind, add on to your experience. Met lovely ladies whom you can't stop loving.
Family has also taken a different turn. Dad fell ill, took on more responsibilities as a daughter. Not hard, cause you love him, and you only have one daddy. Bittersweet.
Health, not too good. Got to work harder in keeping the flu bug at bay! Jiayou!
Love,well, let's just say you are simply just enjoying your current status. No obligations.. meeting new guys... Joanne will understand why.
Anyway, hope all your 3 wishes will come true! and enjoy your day! Happy Birthday Yvette!
Thursday, September 16, 2010
A day of mixed feelings.
Knock off from work... Went home to shower then head down to Marina Bay to meet my parents and aunt to meet up with Uncle Robert for dinner.
As I was heading down, I can't help but think about all these places were all up and ready for the public at such a late time, time when I am all alone, and it is always these places that make me think of that one, thinking what would it be like if I was here with him, that is why I can't help being a little sad. But its all over, funny how I took 5 years to forget the first one, 2 years to forget J and barely 3 months to forget the recent one. Maybe love was not strong with K.
As I was reaching the casino, I saw a familiar someone. Someone who just changed his profile picture not too long ago. I am happy for him, although it took me a good 5 years to let him go. But it was nice to see him, again although I guess he didn't see me. I wish you all the best.. you know I always will. =)
Okay, enough of the exes, let's talk about this nice dinner I was treated to. A $300 per person dinner... Now I know maybe I can get a discount, wahahaha! Say earlier mah, mei! Hahaha! Enough of my rantings, let my pictures do the talking.
As I was heading down, I can't help but think about all these places were all up and ready for the public at such a late time, time when I am all alone, and it is always these places that make me think of that one, thinking what would it be like if I was here with him, that is why I can't help being a little sad. But its all over, funny how I took 5 years to forget the first one, 2 years to forget J and barely 3 months to forget the recent one. Maybe love was not strong with K.
As I was reaching the casino, I saw a familiar someone. Someone who just changed his profile picture not too long ago. I am happy for him, although it took me a good 5 years to let him go. But it was nice to see him, again although I guess he didn't see me. I wish you all the best.. you know I always will. =)
Okay, enough of the exes, let's talk about this nice dinner I was treated to. A $300 per person dinner... Now I know maybe I can get a discount, wahahaha! Say earlier mah, mei! Hahaha! Enough of my rantings, let my pictures do the talking.
Wednesday, September 8, 2010
I realise...
I realise that I have fallen more in love with you than I did 6 years ago.
Maybe after so many years, I realise what the phrase "the one that truly loves you is the one that you don't see."
One step at a time, as I told Joanne.
Maybe one step at a time this time... the steps will lead us to where we want to go.
Fingers crossed... but no matter what.. I know I love you now.
Maybe after so many years, I realise what the phrase "the one that truly loves you is the one that you don't see."
One step at a time, as I told Joanne.
Maybe one step at a time this time... the steps will lead us to where we want to go.
Fingers crossed... but no matter what.. I know I love you now.
Sunday, September 5, 2010
Been a long while.
It has been a long while since I last blog. Wonder who still reads my blog. Oh well! *Shrugs*...
It also have been a long while since I met Joanne... Met her for dinner and chit chat yesterday. Time with her is never boring. Laughter is always there! Love you sis!
And through our conversations yesterday, I realise why when I broke up with K, I did not even cry much compared to when I broke up with J. Because with K, I realise it was he who loved me more than I did. Till the end, when things just crumbled, I took it with a pinch of salt. Surprise!! Anyway, the funny thing is there are certain things that I tend not to come in contact with if I can, like I switch channels if there is a movie introduction on the TV, it reminds me of him, because he is a movie buff, I don't go to Pasir Ris UNLESS very necessary, which has not happen yet and I have not taken a drop of beer (which is good!!), and I don't look at marathon ads anymore. All these just lead me to think of him, although there were lesser love on my side till the end, it does not mean I do not love him right? I am still human.. And of course after breaking up with him, I no longer harbour any thoughts of getting married or starting family.. Thanks to him! With my new relationship now, I will NOT think so much.. One step at a time.. Marriage really does not mean happily ever after. I have seen too much instances around me. Not cool and fairytale anymore. Although I know marriage is NEVER fairytale.
Yup, why didn't I blog for so long, because life has been hell busy for me! School holidays are here, thus the ability to blog! I will try to come and "visit" you, my dear blog. Till then..
It also have been a long while since I met Joanne... Met her for dinner and chit chat yesterday. Time with her is never boring. Laughter is always there! Love you sis!
And through our conversations yesterday, I realise why when I broke up with K, I did not even cry much compared to when I broke up with J. Because with K, I realise it was he who loved me more than I did. Till the end, when things just crumbled, I took it with a pinch of salt. Surprise!! Anyway, the funny thing is there are certain things that I tend not to come in contact with if I can, like I switch channels if there is a movie introduction on the TV, it reminds me of him, because he is a movie buff, I don't go to Pasir Ris UNLESS very necessary, which has not happen yet and I have not taken a drop of beer (which is good!!), and I don't look at marathon ads anymore. All these just lead me to think of him, although there were lesser love on my side till the end, it does not mean I do not love him right? I am still human.. And of course after breaking up with him, I no longer harbour any thoughts of getting married or starting family.. Thanks to him! With my new relationship now, I will NOT think so much.. One step at a time.. Marriage really does not mean happily ever after. I have seen too much instances around me. Not cool and fairytale anymore. Although I know marriage is NEVER fairytale.
Yup, why didn't I blog for so long, because life has been hell busy for me! School holidays are here, thus the ability to blog! I will try to come and "visit" you, my dear blog. Till then..
Sunday, July 18, 2010
Wednesday, June 30, 2010
I am blessed. Really blessed.
I am blessed to have what I have now.
It's been a crazy 3 years.
I think all these is part of growing up.
Only after you lose, then you would gain.
Round and round in circles, then you get to meet lovely people whom you always dream to have as your colleagues.
Round and round in circles, thinking someone could be the true one. Then, it turns out not to be the truth. ONLY TO REALISE, that.. yup.. oh well.
I am blessed!
It's been a crazy 3 years.
I think all these is part of growing up.
Only after you lose, then you would gain.
Round and round in circles, then you get to meet lovely people whom you always dream to have as your colleagues.
Round and round in circles, thinking someone could be the true one. Then, it turns out not to be the truth. ONLY TO REALISE, that.. yup.. oh well.
Sunday, May 30, 2010
I cried... 9 months of missing you..
For the past 9 months, I didn't dare to go think about the two of them.
It is a deep dark secret that I told no one here in SG, only my friends in Taiwan know.
Amanda aka 曼寧 called me just now.. And told me after 9 months of their passing, FINALLY FINALLY they came into her dreams. And it was so coincidental that she watched a Taiwanese mini drama series on the hurricane that killed so many.
Yes, I lost two very good friends from Taiwan in this terrible natural disaster that shook Taiwan 9 months ago.
I miss them terribly, and since I was woken up, I came online and watched the show Amanda told me. It is short 6 part mini drama, (and I just found out Vanness is one of the producers!) and from the moment the show started, I cried. I cried thinking about them, about the times we had, and how I never get to see them again. 9 months of heartache and missing them, the pain is so intense that I am still crying as I am typing this out.
It is a kind of pain that I can only shove it into a deep dark corner of my mind and heart to move on.
That is why I learn to appreciate my friends more now. I have learn to let go of any grudges I have with any friend, and tell myself, life is too short to be angry about.
敏和琳，要快樂！你們要做快樂和漂亮的天使！我愛你們！
To my besties, I love you girls too! (Amanda, 圓,娟,Joanne, Stella, Rain, Maylyn,Minyi). You girls will always have a very very special place in my heart, no matter what happens, no matter where I am.
I really hope I don't have to go through this kind of pain ever again... It is really too hard to bear.
It is a deep dark secret that I told no one here in SG, only my friends in Taiwan know.
Amanda aka 曼寧 called me just now.. And told me after 9 months of their passing, FINALLY FINALLY they came into her dreams. And it was so coincidental that she watched a Taiwanese mini drama series on the hurricane that killed so many.
Yes, I lost two very good friends from Taiwan in this terrible natural disaster that shook Taiwan 9 months ago.
I miss them terribly, and since I was woken up, I came online and watched the show Amanda told me. It is short 6 part mini drama, (and I just found out Vanness is one of the producers!) and from the moment the show started, I cried. I cried thinking about them, about the times we had, and how I never get to see them again. 9 months of heartache and missing them, the pain is so intense that I am still crying as I am typing this out.
It is a kind of pain that I can only shove it into a deep dark corner of my mind and heart to move on.
That is why I learn to appreciate my friends more now. I have learn to let go of any grudges I have with any friend, and tell myself, life is too short to be angry about.
敏和琳，要快樂！你們要做快樂和漂亮的天使！我愛你們！
To my besties, I love you girls too! (Amanda, 圓,娟,Joanne, Stella, Rain, Maylyn,Minyi). You girls will always have a very very special place in my heart, no matter what happens, no matter where I am.
I really hope I don't have to go through this kind of pain ever again... It is really too hard to bear.
Friday, May 28, 2010
i love you.
what more can i say?
that i love you..
more than anything else...
and thank you for staying with me..
i miss you and i look forward to end june when we can spend more time together.
我愛你! 寶貝，我愛你!
that i love you..
more than anything else...
and thank you for staying with me..
i miss you and i look forward to end june when we can spend more time together.
我愛你! 寶貝，我愛你!
Thursday, May 27, 2010
The scariest thing so far..
The scariest thing so far isn't stepping into the hospital and see the different kinds of patients around you..
The scariest thing that I learnt of today was, the total quietness in a super super small space..
For the past 26 years, nothing fazes me as much as cockroaches and height... now let me add one more.. it's not small space or quietness.. it is BOTH when they are put together!
Why do they have to make the scan room or MRI room so damn bloody cold!!! and I have to be changed into the thinest of the materials that a human can wear, and I am suppose to lie there for a good 30 minutes!
What is scary is also the time, they tell you its 30 minutes, it bloody feels like a good 30 hours!
*click* goes the room door when the nurse went out and *POOF* total silence! A pin drops can be ear deafening!! Can you imagine a good 30 minutes like that and worst, when you can't see what's going around you because you are being 'pushed' into a tunnel and the 'tunnel' just spins above you.
No wonder the technician tells you to close your eyes and just relax..
But how in the world do I relax when all I can hear is "nggggggg ngggggg nggggg nggggg ngggg"!
When I came out, mum thought I was going to faint cause I was so pale! Who wouldn't be? Its a damn 30 minutes of "nnnngggg nnnngggg nggggnnngggg!" and in a quiet small space that I can't help thinking what will happen if there is an electric blackout!
What a day!
The scariest thing that I learnt of today was, the total quietness in a super super small space..
For the past 26 years, nothing fazes me as much as cockroaches and height... now let me add one more.. it's not small space or quietness.. it is BOTH when they are put together!
Why do they have to make the scan room or MRI room so damn bloody cold!!! and I have to be changed into the thinest of the materials that a human can wear, and I am suppose to lie there for a good 30 minutes!
What is scary is also the time, they tell you its 30 minutes, it bloody feels like a good 30 hours!
*click* goes the room door when the nurse went out and *POOF* total silence! A pin drops can be ear deafening!! Can you imagine a good 30 minutes like that and worst, when you can't see what's going around you because you are being 'pushed' into a tunnel and the 'tunnel' just spins above you.
No wonder the technician tells you to close your eyes and just relax..
But how in the world do I relax when all I can hear is "nggggggg ngggggg nggggg nggggg ngggg"!
When I came out, mum thought I was going to faint cause I was so pale! Who wouldn't be? Its a damn 30 minutes of "nnnngggg nnnngggg nggggnnngggg!" and in a quiet small space that I can't help thinking what will happen if there is an electric blackout!
What a day!
It saddens me to see my mum cry...
out of concern for me.
I was surprised that she was so worried about my condition that when I got home today, she was already in the living room, watching TV. Suddenly, in the dark living room, I realise Mummy aged alot.
I was so busy this week, being called last minute to KL with boss, to accompany her to check out the school's childcare centre there, I was hardly home for two days and I forgot to bring my phone. She must have worried that I could have collapse there.
But I am really really blessed to have... my parents are my pillars of strength. No one can ever take their places. They may not know how to express their worries, anger well, but I know it is all out of concern for me.
Yes, I am scared now.. Worried what the results maybe like... On leave for the next few days, to clear this worry and to clear the atmosphere at home. But I will hold my head high, knowing I have my family behind me, no matter what happens.
out of concern for me.
I was surprised that she was so worried about my condition that when I got home today, she was already in the living room, watching TV. Suddenly, in the dark living room, I realise Mummy aged alot.
I was so busy this week, being called last minute to KL with boss, to accompany her to check out the school's childcare centre there, I was hardly home for two days and I forgot to bring my phone. She must have worried that I could have collapse there.
But I am really really blessed to have... my parents are my pillars of strength. No one can ever take their places. They may not know how to express their worries, anger well, but I know it is all out of concern for me.
Friday, May 21, 2010
勇气。
梁静如唱出我心里的话。
爱真的需要勇气，来面对所有的流言蜚语。
只要他的一个眼神肯定，我的爱就会有意义。
毕竟，五年前是我伤了他，放弃他。
但这五年，无论我身边有没有男友，遇到什么困难，他都会时不时的关心我。
老实说这五个`多月来，我想了很多，也知道我要什么了。
我要一个家，一个属于我自己的家。
我不年轻，处了女儿，姐姐和妹妹的身份，我也想做一位太太和妈妈的女人。
身边的朋友，家人，连前男友都成家了，难免也有点羡慕。
走了这么多圈，我累了，不想再寻寻觅觅，眼前的他是对的，我也不要再“想太多”。。
幸福是一辈子，我不会闹着玩。
我知道我在做什么。放心。
Monday, May 17, 2010
选择忘记.
选择忘记 是对自己一个交代。
选择忘记 是对自己的一个保护。
选择重新再爱 是觉得自己没有太多的时间了。
有了机会再重新被他人再爱 是一件幸福的事。
别人会觉得为何我能这么快再爱 因为我长大了。
学会放下。。
张大了 学会 如果他不是你的 再多的 心痛 眼泪 也再换不回他的爱。
何必呢？
把自己逼到一个黑暗的角落。。
封锁可以再爱的权利。
长大了 学会祝福 也知道什么是真心的祝福。。
爱情 需要 时间 经历 心痛 快乐 眼泪 欢笑 才知道怎么和它好好的相处。
我不需要他人的评论 也不需要无关紧要的人来告诉我怎么爱 怎么做出我自己的幸福的决定。
对曾经爱过我和我爱过的他说 谢谢你 让我学会怎么‘成熟’的爱。。也谢谢你爱过我。
选择忘记 是对自己的一个保护。
选择重新再爱 是觉得自己没有太多的时间了。
有了机会再重新被他人再爱 是一件幸福的事。
别人会觉得为何我能这么快再爱 因为我长大了。
学会放下。。
张大了 学会 如果他不是你的 再多的 心痛 眼泪 也再换不回他的爱。
何必呢？
把自己逼到一个黑暗的角落。。
封锁可以再爱的权利。
长大了 学会祝福 也知道什么是真心的祝福。。
爱情 需要 时间 经历 心痛 快乐 眼泪 欢笑 才知道怎么和它好好的相处。
我不需要他人的评论 也不需要无关紧要的人来告诉我怎么爱 怎么做出我自己的幸福的决定。
对曾经爱过我和我爱过的他说 谢谢你 让我学会怎么‘成熟’的爱。。也谢谢你爱过我。
Friday, May 14, 2010
Thank you.
Thank you to those who express their concern.
Thank you to 大姐... for immediately sending me the private FB's message.
Thank you to James and gang for buying my favourite food and crashing over at my place.
Thank you to Joanne, Stella for msn-ing and fb-ing me.
Thank you guys... I really feel loved. Thanks.
Thank you to 大姐... for immediately sending me the private FB's message.
Thank you to James and gang for buying my favourite food and crashing over at my place.
Thank you to Joanne, Stella for msn-ing and fb-ing me.
Thank you guys... I really feel loved. Thanks.
Monday, May 10, 2010
I learn not to cry outwardly...
I learn to keep all these emotions in me...
I don't know who do I go and say all these things are that bothering me to...
I learn to deal with all these emotions and issues alone...
Who do I go to and say: "XXX, I am feeling down, will you hear me out?"...
Who has the time and mood to listen to me?
Sigh...
I learn to keep all these emotions in me...
I don't know who do I go and say all these things are that bothering me to...
I learn to deal with all these emotions and issues alone...
Who do I go to and say: "XXX, I am feeling down, will you hear me out?"...
Who has the time and mood to listen to me?
Sigh...
Wednesday, April 28, 2010
Saturday, April 24, 2010
原谅我和对不起。
我想对我的好姐妹们，朋友和表姐们，请妳们原谅我不想多说我现在的感情世界。
我发现我最近无论何谁在一起，一旦讨论了，还是讲出来，就不会有好下场。可能就像我的台湾朋友，小象妹说：“妳今年的感情命运就像人家怀孕三个月，不能说。” 听了，觉得好笑又好像有道理。
我答应妳们，一旦一切稳定了，我会慢慢和妳们说。
暂时，就请妳们原谅我的不说和对不起。
我发现我最近无论何谁在一起，一旦讨论了，还是讲出来，就不会有好下场。可能就像我的台湾朋友，小象妹说：“妳今年的感情命运就像人家怀孕三个月，不能说。” 听了，觉得好笑又好像有道理。
我答应妳们，一旦一切稳定了，我会慢慢和妳们说。
暂时，就请妳们原谅我的不说和对不起。
Thursday, April 22, 2010
A night with One Prince and 4 Monkeys.
Rain poured.
Muddy fields. Late entrance.
But the music in between was good.
Sadly, certain factors cannot be avoided. Hopefully, the possible rumored September concert will really really happen.
Cause 17th April's night out with one prince and 4 monkeys was really not high.
Come back soon... please!
Muddy fields. Late entrance.
But the music in between was good.
Sadly, certain factors cannot be avoided. Hopefully, the possible rumored September concert will really really happen.
Cause 17th April's night out with one prince and 4 monkeys was really not high.
Come back soon... please!
Sunday, April 18, 2010
伤心。
我伤心。。
是因为我关心，你却看不到。朋友都说哪是你（妳）的个性。
失望是因为往往期望太高，失望就越大。
但失望归失望，我还是想对你（妳）说：我会永远关心和爱护你。
虽然我常常都分不到你（妳）的爱，只希望有一天，你（妳）会感觉到我的爱和宽怀。
因为，你（妳）会是我永远的好朋友。
无论你在哪里，和谁在一起。。
是因为我关心，你却看不到。朋友都说哪是你（妳）的个性。
失望是因为往往期望太高，失望就越大。
但失望归失望，我还是想对你（妳）说：我会永远关心和爱护你。
虽然我常常都分不到你（妳）的爱，只希望有一天，你（妳）会感觉到我的爱和宽怀。
因为，你（妳）会是我永远的好朋友。
无论你在哪里，和谁在一起。。
Friday, April 16, 2010
为什么。
为什么明明想念，却说不想念？
为什么明明还在乎但却要装作关心早就不在？
为什么明明还爱他，却得装作坚强对全世界说你已经不爱了？
可笑的不是这些为什么。。
我觉得世上最可笑的为什么是。。
为什么明明心里已经不快乐，心里已经不爱了，却可以和他在一起过了548天？
为什么我可以骗自己，让自己觉得爱可以这么理所当然？
学会了，学乖了。
不想再沉迷于太多的为什么。。实在太可笑了。
为什么明明还在乎但却要装作关心早就不在？
为什么明明还爱他，却得装作坚强对全世界说你已经不爱了？
可笑的不是这些为什么。。
我觉得世上最可笑的为什么是。。
为什么明明心里已经不快乐，心里已经不爱了，却可以和他在一起过了548天？
为什么我可以骗自己，让自己觉得爱可以这么理所当然？
学会了，学乖了。
不想再沉迷于太多的为什么。。实在太可笑了。
Monday, April 12, 2010
Who will remember?
Who knows a sentence from the past will be the weapon that will hurt us in the future?
Who remember that we once held hands and promise to walk to the future together?
Who will remember that once love dwindles, the future that we see is no longer the same?
Who will remember the night, we went our separate ways, I would cry?
Who will remember the plans we made together but got crashed?
I know you don't, but I did.
Who remember that we once held hands and promise to walk to the future together?
Who will remember that once love dwindles, the future that we see is no longer the same?
Who will remember the night, we went our separate ways, I would cry?
Who will remember the plans we made together but got crashed?
I know you don't, but I did.
Friday, April 9, 2010
I love her to bits.
She came into my life 2 years ago. I never expect to love a little life that is not blood related to me so much, now I have two... I hope three DON'T come so soon ah, Mrs Liu!! Let me breathe abit lah!
Had 2 days off to get some personal stuff done, thus I was able to meet this little bundle of joy(energy).
We met Rain at Yishun Mrt, accompanied Stella's mother in law for a job interview at Lucky Plaza, then she brought my another little bundle of joy, Cherris Liu home as the younger Mrs Liu decided to NOT bring the pram along! (What A GREAT idea it was!)
We had a late lunch/cum early dinner at Nihon Mura at The Cathay. Boy, what a heavy meal we had but I really enjoy it! Rain and Stella took loads of pictures, so.. I just sit back and relax with my meal. Hahahaha!
After dinner, we headed to Bugis to accompany Rain to purchase a pair of boots that Stella had worn to China. I was super duper tempted to buy but I held back! Hahaha!
Then to Bugis Junction as Stella wanted to get Precious a pair of Mary Jane, no shoes bought but I got her a pretty dress from Fox Kids that she could not stop giggling when Stella help her try it on. (Her smile & laughter melts my heart.. =) ), had drinks to end of the day as the little bundle of joy was cranky and tired.
Home sweet home and that little darling was already asleep on her Mummy's chest when I got off the train at Bishan.
Couple of interesting sentences that were spoken today.
Stella put on her Facebook after I commented I was 'melting'.
"Yvette Yeo is made of chocolate, Wendy Liew is made of paper." Wth!
Stella was telling us about the fortune teller's predictions about the number of children they would have and EVEN how many kids HER kids will have..
-.-" I hope that teacher's predictions are true! Thus I commented:
"Did the fortune teller tell you that Precious will torture her mother and her ah yis (Rain and I)?" Hahaha!
Had 2 days off to get some personal stuff done, thus I was able to meet this little bundle of joy(energy).
We met Rain at Yishun Mrt, accompanied Stella's mother in law for a job interview at Lucky Plaza, then she brought my another little bundle of joy, Cherris Liu home as the younger Mrs Liu decided to NOT bring the pram along! (What A GREAT idea it was!)
We had a late lunch/cum early dinner at Nihon Mura at The Cathay. Boy, what a heavy meal we had but I really enjoy it! Rain and Stella took loads of pictures, so.. I just sit back and relax with my meal. Hahahaha!
After dinner, we headed to Bugis to accompany Rain to purchase a pair of boots that Stella had worn to China. I was super duper tempted to buy but I held back! Hahaha!
Then to Bugis Junction as Stella wanted to get Precious a pair of Mary Jane, no shoes bought but I got her a pretty dress from Fox Kids that she could not stop giggling when Stella help her try it on. (Her smile & laughter melts my heart.. =) ), had drinks to end of the day as the little bundle of joy was cranky and tired.
Home sweet home and that little darling was already asleep on her Mummy's chest when I got off the train at Bishan.
The lil darling that stole my heart.
Couple of interesting sentences that were spoken today.
Stella put on her Facebook after I commented I was 'melting'.
"Yvette Yeo is made of chocolate, Wendy Liew is made of paper." Wth!
Stella was telling us about the fortune teller's predictions about the number of children they would have and EVEN how many kids HER kids will have..
-.-" I hope that teacher's predictions are true! Thus I commented:
"Did the fortune teller tell you that Precious will torture her mother and her ah yis (Rain and I)?" Hahaha!
Thursday, April 8, 2010
Dinner @ Hard Rock Hotel, Singapore~!
Uncle Robert is in town!
Went to meet him at his hotel after work today with mum,dad and my aunt suzy!
Went to his room and I totally fell in love with the deco!!! Oh My GOD!! So nice!!! Too bad, I forgot to take pictures while was in his room.
Then we had drinks at lobby.. then dinner at the Starz Restaurant, which serves international buffet. The oysters, muscles were out of this world! We even had white wine!!! WHEEE!!!
Nice dinner, nice company! I am so coming here for my birthday pampering. Nice place... to have some couple time. Hahaha!
Went to meet him at his hotel after work today with mum,dad and my aunt suzy!
Went to his room and I totally fell in love with the deco!!! Oh My GOD!! So nice!!! Too bad, I forgot to take pictures while was in his room.
Then we had drinks at lobby.. then dinner at the Starz Restaurant, which serves international buffet. The oysters, muscles were out of this world! We even had white wine!!! WHEEE!!!
Nice dinner, nice company! I am so coming here for my birthday pampering. Nice place... to have some couple time. Hahaha!
Tuesday, April 6, 2010
选择。。
选择放手是需要勇气，也会是一种快乐。
让你走，是我对自己的爱护，保护。也是对所有爱我和关心我的家人，朋友，姐妹的一种交待。
不要在原地徘徊，不要再伤心流泪。
我要勇敢的做回我自己。
因为我发现心里最重要的位置，可能早就想留给那个。。。在远方痴痴还在等我四年的他。
心里早就没有位置留给你。也想说声对不起。因为我没有发现，我可能想和他厮守终生。
我爱人太久了。想好好的享受被爱的滋味。
让你走，是我对自己的爱护，保护。也是对所有爱我和关心我的家人，朋友，姐妹的一种交待。
不要在原地徘徊，不要再伤心流泪。
我要勇敢的做回我自己。
因为我发现心里最重要的位置，可能早就想留给那个。。。在远方痴痴还在等我四年的他。
心里早就没有位置留给你。也想说声对不起。因为我没有发现，我可能想和他厮守终生。
我爱人太久了。想好好的享受被爱的滋味。
Monday, April 5, 2010
Brand new start..
Brand new start to everything in life... I just want to take a brand new step in everything I do this year.
I have been missing out too much in life for the past years.. I have decide to just walk out and see everything differently.
My girls know that I have changed abit, at least in my dressing... and the way I think about stuff.
I want to be happy for myself... I want to be living the way I want my life to be.
This... is my brand new blog.. my brand new way of saying goodbye to the life I had for the past 25+ years...
=)
I have been missing out too much in life for the past years.. I have decide to just walk out and see everything differently.
My girls know that I have changed abit, at least in my dressing... and the way I think about stuff.
I want to be happy for myself... I want to be living the way I want my life to be.
This... is my brand new blog.. my brand new way of saying goodbye to the life I had for the past 25+ years...
=)
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