I cried... 9 months of missing you..

For the past 9 months, I didn't dare to go think about the two of them.
It is a deep dark secret that I told no one here in SG, only my friends in Taiwan know.

Amanda aka 曼寧 called me just now.. And told me after 9 months of their passing, FINALLY FINALLY they came into her dreams. And it was so coincidental that she watched a Taiwanese mini drama series on the hurricane that killed so many.
Yes, I lost two very good friends from Taiwan in this terrible natural disaster that shook Taiwan 9 months ago.

I miss them terribly, and since I was woken up, I came online and watched the show Amanda told me. It is short 6 part mini drama, (and I just found out Vanness is one of the producers!) and from the moment the show started, I cried. I cried thinking about them, about the times we had, and how I never get to see them again. 9 months of heartache and missing them, the pain is so intense that I am still crying as I am typing this out.
It is a kind of pain that I can only shove it into a deep dark corner of my mind and heart to move on.


That is why I learn to appreciate my friends more now. I have learn to let go of any grudges I have with any friend, and tell myself, life is too short to be angry about.

敏和琳，要快樂！你們要做快樂和漂亮的天使！我愛你們！

To my besties, I love you girls too! (Amanda, 圓,娟,Joanne, Stella, Rain, Maylyn,Minyi). You girls will always have a very very special place in my heart, no matter what happens, no matter where I am.

I really hope I don't have to go through this kind of pain ever again... It is really too hard to bear.